SHE surrendered.
I had never felt or acknowledged this side of myself.
I felt the softening.
As the lyrics and riff activated something deep within my soul.
It was the first time I had honoured my body like this.
Turned on by my own beauty.
Body open.
Legs open.
Heart open.
Pussy wet.
One hand tracing my lips, my face, my breasts, my hips.
The other hand deep in the wetness of my sex.
Turned on physically, emotionally and mentally by my own touch.
Dripping, yearning, enamoured by the depth of connection with self.
Body trembling as I caressed every inch of HER.
How had I spent my life so disconnected from this part of myself.
Used to a quick fix and getting off on porn.
Now knowing and feeling this intimacy with myself there’s no way I would trade this for a quick dopamine hit.
A promise to myself that I would no longer rush HER.
Revelling in the gratitude that I finally listened to what SHE wanted.
Elated.
Enlivened.
Enraptured.
AM xx